today

i have a migraine. i get them a lot. i am probably being punished by god for not believing in her. not even lying down in the dark with an ice pack makes it go away. only killing myself will. this is how i can understand people who are suicidal. anyways. it's not going to stop me from blogging!

what *is* daunting, however, is the command "create" i have to click when i blog. why can't it say "jot"?